Here comes sorrow…

This is very hard for me. I have to work tomorrow and Miki still refuse the bottle. I have been crying all morning forcing Miki to drink expressed breast milk until my shirt is soaked with both milk and tears! When Miki cries I cry harder.

This is too painful for me. Since he was very-very tiny, Miki has a habit of staring at my face and following me with his gaze just about everywhere I go. And around last week he has started to really recognize me as he would break into a smile or even laugher the very moment he sees my face. If you understand the feeling of your heart melting with love, well that is what I feel.

But tomorrow I would have to leave him so please God let him drink from the bottle. Please don’t let him go hungry just because I am not around. Oh, if only my boobs are detachable, I would leave them with the babysitter! I would I would!

Author: Diyana

16 thoughts on “Here comes sorrow…

  1. mmm i think i forgot to remind you.. bile bottle training, its almost impossible for d mommy itself nk ask d baby to drink d milk of d bottle coz he KNOWS u and ur boobbies is THERE.. so d only way 2 bottle train him is to ask sum1 else to feed him instead . N u must b away frm d baby or possible OUT of d house. coz we mothers have dat Strong bond or smell dat babies can detect.

    Good luck.
    p/s: if still cannot, ask d babysitter to feed using cup or spoon.

  2. awww babe,

    it was the same for jasmine when she was smaller!

    and yes, it is because of our scent (i think it was the smell of milk + our skin = MOMMY)

    that may be the reason as to why he is not drinking his bottled milk.

    my mom even had to use a small cup to make her drink.

    and yes, i cried every single day for the first month.

    and sometimes after that.

    i even cry sometimes nowdays if i suddenly realize that i’m missing out on my baby’s growing days.

    even when i’m typing this.

    i wish hubby was a millionaire, then i’ll be home with my baby.

  3. hang bawak je miki, pastu korang kat opis tu gilir gilir la jaga hak hak hak

  4. hai..
    u hantar baby jauh ke? kat opis tak de taska? anyway, mula-mula memang dia refuse nak minum.. but then bile dia lapar, sure dia minum punya.. dont worry la.. and since you said that your baby is still small, nape tak amik extra cuti? like mine prev, i took one month xtra cuti tanpa gaji.. heheh.. sonok nk guling-guling ngan baby kat umah..

  5. bykkan bersabar…..lama2 nnti dia oklah…just like irfan long time ago(tak lama pun….baru jek 9 months ago..now dah ok)tapi mula2 tu…kurus skit laaa….

  6. I was in ur shoe when my confinement period was over, have to back to work after dini was born, and (not to scare u) and it took me 3 years fully bresstfeed her, and she only quit 2 months before hafiy was born….and the temporarry solution, my maid have to spoon feed her when i was away for work with the expressed milk…and even we tried to bottole feed her with the expressed milk..its successfully failed!!! big time i will took trouble to c her during the short lunch time because i knew she must be crying and starving and yet so stubborn n refusing the bottle. Sampai tetido2 starving and for two months when i reached home definately i’ll burst in tears seeing her macam tu. But once dia start makan its a relief because u can add ur expressed or formula milk into the porridge and dont add any salt until shes 12 months old, dont put any of the popeye leaves, lots to tell about the donts…nanti i update my blog on this!

    As for hafiy we started bottle feed him with expressed milk as early as 3 weeks old ( i really got my lesson) and only breastfeed him at night. its works…i hope miki will cooping well with bottle…i know how hard it can be….just be strong…and theres various type of “fake puting”(but they are nothing compare to the original) in market, just try to get what suit miki best….and even when u r around try as much as u can not to breasfeed him( easy to saylahkan, VERY VERY hard to be done) huhuhuhu…..and still GUD LUCK!!!!.Uwaaaaaaaaa

  7. waaa..mamidini…u’re so lucky…i only manage to breastfeed my little one only for 2 month, after that..susu dah xder….

  8. Mmmmm….. macam mana nak buat tu ek? Saya so far tak dak masalah macam tu pasai anak2 saya semua tak mau breasfeed… lagi sedey… depa nak minum susu botoi…

  9. lani dah ok ka?? kesian la pulak… at least know this, hang rapat dgnanak hang… baguih la tu… after this walau sebusy mana pun hang, miki sure nak kat hang jugaks kan

  10. Mamase mamasa mamakusa! Mamase mamasa mamakusa! Mamase mamasa mamakusa!

    Eh silap blog ke aku nih heh heh

  11. Oh gosh Peanut is not even born yet but the idea of leaving him/her behind so I can go to work is just sad 🙁

    Yeah wish we can detach our boobies but then again would be funny going around with just one boob…

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